Good Morning everyone..
I went to kickboxing last night and it kicked me down. To the ground. China Town lol
Anyway, my thighs are tight like the elastic on some too little panty drawers.. UGH
Today, I want to touch on self-esteem and what I feel is healthy and unhealthy.
Having a healthy self-esteem is recipe for living happy.
Being happy with you, not what others deem you to be. When I was growing up, people either liked me or they didn't; its very simple people. However, when people stated that they didn't like me and were asked why, it would always be something superficial like "She thinks she is cute. She thinks she is smart. She thinks she looks good. She thinks she is all that."
Well, honestly, I never said any of these things, but these people were not happy with themselves and were upset that I could be happy with myself.
Never be mad at somebody due to envy or jealousy-- Envy and jealousy is something like a carcinogen; very cancerous, deadly and toxic. Can erode you from the inside out.
Also, don't settle for less than what you deserve. Ever. Just. Don't
Having a healthy self-esteem means you speak from a place of conviction and you can attest to your mistakes. Not only that, but you can LEARN from your mistakes so you don't repeat the same wrong things over and over again.
When youor self-esteem is in the right balance, you will take care of yourself physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally.... That is a LOADED statement right there. You will eat better, think better, pray better and feel better all around. Simmer on that and what that may look like in your life.
Living consciously also comes into play. Listen to that little voice inside of you :-)
When you have an unhealthy self-esteem, you feel weak, dependent and not strong or too well put together constantly. This is often times masked by material things, drugs, alcohol, flashy clothes, belittling others, jealousy, anger, betrayal.... I could go on.
It's self esteem people. Esteem of self. Like Katt Williams said, "How can I mess up your self-esteem?? It's called SELF-ESTEEM. How can I influence how you feel about you?"
Things that make you go "hmmmmm...."
UNTIL NEXT TIME............
March 22, 2012
March 15, 2012
SIGN THE PETITION - Trayvon Martin
Please sign the petition!!!!!!!! NO POST TODAY....
Why This Is Important.... Taken from change.org:
"On February 26, our son Trayvon Martin was shot and killed as he walked to a family member's home from a convenience store where he had just bought some candy. He was only 17 years-old.
Trayvon's killer, George Zimmerman, admitted to police that he shot Trayvon in the chest. Zimmerman, the community's self appointed "neighborhood watch leader," called the police to report a suspicious person when he saw Travyon, a young black man, walking from the store. But
Zimmerman still hasn't been charged for murdering my son.
Trayvon was our hero. At the age 9, Trayvon pulled his father from a burning kitchen, saving his life.
He loved sports and horseback riding. At only 17 he had a bright future ahead of him with dreams of attending college and becoming an aviation mechanic. Now that’s all gone.
When Zimmerman reported Trayvon to the police, they told him not to confront him. But he did anyway. All we know about what happened next is that our 17 year-old son, who was completely unarmed, was shot and killed.
It's been nearly two weeks and the Sanford Police have refused to arrest George Zimmerman. In their public statements, they even go so far as to stand up for the killer - saying he's "a college grad" who took a class in criminal justice.
Please join us in calling on Norman Wolfinger, Florida's 18th District State's Attorney, to investigate my son's murder and prosecute George Zimmerman for the shooting and killing of Trayvon Martin."
Witness Mary Cutcher statement:
Sanford Police said there was not enough evidence to arrest Zimmerman.
However, witness Mary Cutcher said she knew the truth. Cutcher said police only took a two or three sentence statement from her, but it took about 30 minutes to tell WFTV the story.
"The cries stopped as soon as the gun went off, so I know it was the little boy," Cutcher said.
"Blew us off, and I called him back again and I said, "I know this was not self-defense. There was no punching, no hitting going on at the time, no wrestling,'" Cutcher said.
Excerpt taken from the petition letter of Trayvon's parents, Tracy and Sybrina:
Trayvon Martin was only 17 years old when he was gunned down by the Neighborhood Watch captain George Zimmerman. All Trayvon did was go to the store to get his brother some Skittles.
According to police, George Zimmerman admitted to the shooting and killing of Trayvon Martin. Why has he not been charged and his case been handed over to prosecutors?
Trayvon Martin was unarmed when he was shot by Zimmerman. All he had in his hands was some candy when he was followed and approached by Zimmerman - who ignored instructions from police not to confront the young man.
Please uphold justice.
PEOPLE PLEASE STAND UP AND DO WHAT IS RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!
This could be your brother, your cousin, your son, your boyfriend, your best friend, your neighbor..... PLEASE DO YOUR PART!
March 14, 2012
March 14, 2001 - 11 years later
Good Morning All!
I need to work on time management, but that has absolutely NOTHING to do with my post. I want to take the time to say THANK YOU to everyone who reads this blog everyday, who supports me and this blog, as well as the people that do not know me (including the people that could care less about me) but still faithfully read the blog. No, that was not a dig towards anybody (gotta issue disclaimers ever since the first blog post which was muy controversial (http://realrawuncuttruth.blogspot.com/2009/03/march-2-2009-confused.html) <--- CLICK HERE if you would like to see what I mean.
After that blog post, I got a lot of texts about "where you talking about me? Is that about me?" Whoa hoes! lol Anybody that knows me knows that I am direct.....
Anyway, after I say all that SMH, this blog is about my Father, Joe Louis Patton. If you have seen me tweeting #3.14.01, it relates to my dad. He died today 11 years ago and sometimes I still cry. I actually have randomly been crying late at night because I still hear his voice clear as day in my head. Sometimes, I do feel his spirit, especially around his birthday (near Thanksgiving), around my birthday and around the date he died.
Maybe that's why when I was watching the OWN Interview with Whitney Houston's family and daughter, I felt it was totally invasive and I was participating in the disrespect by tuning in. Honestly, I felt my dad's spirit the whole night after watching that interview. I could not go to sleep and the tears were just coming down. I can not explain why though. Maybe because I could feel Bobbi's pain. No, she was not breaking down and crying, cooning it up for TV, but at some point, you become numb and are all cried out at that point.
I feel like I should be all cried out, and sometimes I am, but other times, it feels as real and as fresh as March 14, 2001.
My dad died due to kidney failure. My stepmother found him in their bed gasping for her and called 911, who took forever to come. She called my mom as soon as they pronounced him dead, which was 9am. My mom did not tell me until 8pm that evening.
My dad lived in Philly, but I spoke to him everyday. It's crazy because he taught me a lot. And I didn't realize it so much 11 years ago, but me and him are so much alike. People that know my father and has met my dad and mom, know that I look more like him. And I have his drive, ambition and independence.
Today is always a somber day for me because I always wonder what he'd be like today, what my situation would be, if I would have made the same collegiate choices, would I be married, would I have children, etc... if my father were still alive.
Today is a day of reflection. 11 years ago, my life changed forever.
Today you should sit back and be thankful for your many blessings. God did not have to wake you up this morning. HE did not have to bless you with your home, your job or your mode of transportation. You are healthy, you are blessed, you are a child of God and you are LOVED. However "messed up" you feel your situation, it could ALWAYS be worse. So, watch that complaining. Life and death is in the power of the tongue.
Tell somebody you love them today. Pray for somebody today. Smile today, even if you feel you have nothing to smile about.
Life is not promised, just like tomorrow is not a guarantee.
UNTIL NEXT TIME....
I need to work on time management, but that has absolutely NOTHING to do with my post. I want to take the time to say THANK YOU to everyone who reads this blog everyday, who supports me and this blog, as well as the people that do not know me (including the people that could care less about me) but still faithfully read the blog. No, that was not a dig towards anybody (gotta issue disclaimers ever since the first blog post which was muy controversial (http://realrawuncuttruth.blogspot.com/2009/03/march-2-2009-confused.html) <--- CLICK HERE if you would like to see what I mean.
After that blog post, I got a lot of texts about "where you talking about me? Is that about me?" Whoa hoes! lol Anybody that knows me knows that I am direct.....
Anyway, after I say all that SMH, this blog is about my Father, Joe Louis Patton. If you have seen me tweeting #3.14.01, it relates to my dad. He died today 11 years ago and sometimes I still cry. I actually have randomly been crying late at night because I still hear his voice clear as day in my head. Sometimes, I do feel his spirit, especially around his birthday (near Thanksgiving), around my birthday and around the date he died.
Maybe that's why when I was watching the OWN Interview with Whitney Houston's family and daughter, I felt it was totally invasive and I was participating in the disrespect by tuning in. Honestly, I felt my dad's spirit the whole night after watching that interview. I could not go to sleep and the tears were just coming down. I can not explain why though. Maybe because I could feel Bobbi's pain. No, she was not breaking down and crying, cooning it up for TV, but at some point, you become numb and are all cried out at that point.
I feel like I should be all cried out, and sometimes I am, but other times, it feels as real and as fresh as March 14, 2001.
My dad died due to kidney failure. My stepmother found him in their bed gasping for her and called 911, who took forever to come. She called my mom as soon as they pronounced him dead, which was 9am. My mom did not tell me until 8pm that evening.
My dad lived in Philly, but I spoke to him everyday. It's crazy because he taught me a lot. And I didn't realize it so much 11 years ago, but me and him are so much alike. People that know my father and has met my dad and mom, know that I look more like him. And I have his drive, ambition and independence.
Today is always a somber day for me because I always wonder what he'd be like today, what my situation would be, if I would have made the same collegiate choices, would I be married, would I have children, etc... if my father were still alive.
Today is a day of reflection. 11 years ago, my life changed forever.
Today you should sit back and be thankful for your many blessings. God did not have to wake you up this morning. HE did not have to bless you with your home, your job or your mode of transportation. You are healthy, you are blessed, you are a child of God and you are LOVED. However "messed up" you feel your situation, it could ALWAYS be worse. So, watch that complaining. Life and death is in the power of the tongue.
Tell somebody you love them today. Pray for somebody today. Smile today, even if you feel you have nothing to smile about.
Life is not promised, just like tomorrow is not a guarantee.
UNTIL NEXT TIME....
March 13, 2012
Whitney Houston's Family Interview on OWN
Good Morning Guys!
Hope all is well.. You will all be glad to know I am feeling much better and actually getting some riggity rest.. Yayyy! lol
I just actually got the chance to watch Oprah interviewing Pat and Gary Houston, as well Bobbi Kristina Brown.
This interview was deep! Very intense and emotional.
A bit of me felt invasive watching the interview because it felt so callous that it was done so soon after Whitney's death (Cissy Houston declined to join the interview at the time.)
However, I will say that Bobbi Kristina was VERY eloquent and articulate, much more so than I actually gave her credit for. She stated that the world "knew nothing about her mom, now in the light she saw her in." Which I will agree with. We view our moms as invincible protectors and providers, especially in the African American community. Mothers do it ALL, whether they are single mothers or not.
Also, I will say that Pat Houston (Whitney's sister in law) has THEE most soothing voice. It kept my attention but I could listen to her talk all day. She was very earnest, emotional and passionate when speaking on Whitney.
I'm glad Pat did not condemn Bobby because he is hurting too. He is not the devil, like people say he is. He is a flawed man, like we all are. I really hope Bobbi Kristina reconnects with her father soon and does not hold grudges because there is NOTHING like a Father's Love :-D
When Gary Houston started speaking, I was glad that he did not condemn Bobby either. As Whitney's older brother, his role was to protect her baby sister and I'm sure that this has been surreal to him. When he was signing, it was surreal because I could hear "Nippy" all up and through his vocals and when he broke down, it got too real to me.
I know that I did not know Whitney Houston at all. I did know her music. I do identify Whitney Houston's music with my father, whom I lost almost 11 years ago (He died on March 14, 2001.) When I hear old school Whitney, it brings me back to a place when I was young, carefree and my Dad was living (I will save this post for tomorrow....)
I pray for their family every night because losing a parent is something that you ALWAYS grieve. There is no replacement. No loss compares to this, especially when it is out of nowhere without warning. It's been 11 years for me losing my dad and I'm still grieving.
UNTIL NEXT TIME.....
Hope all is well.. You will all be glad to know I am feeling much better and actually getting some riggity rest.. Yayyy! lol
I just actually got the chance to watch Oprah interviewing Pat and Gary Houston, as well Bobbi Kristina Brown.
This interview was deep! Very intense and emotional.
A bit of me felt invasive watching the interview because it felt so callous that it was done so soon after Whitney's death (Cissy Houston declined to join the interview at the time.)
However, I will say that Bobbi Kristina was VERY eloquent and articulate, much more so than I actually gave her credit for. She stated that the world "knew nothing about her mom, now in the light she saw her in." Which I will agree with. We view our moms as invincible protectors and providers, especially in the African American community. Mothers do it ALL, whether they are single mothers or not.
Also, I will say that Pat Houston (Whitney's sister in law) has THEE most soothing voice. It kept my attention but I could listen to her talk all day. She was very earnest, emotional and passionate when speaking on Whitney.
I'm glad Pat did not condemn Bobby because he is hurting too. He is not the devil, like people say he is. He is a flawed man, like we all are. I really hope Bobbi Kristina reconnects with her father soon and does not hold grudges because there is NOTHING like a Father's Love :-D
When Gary Houston started speaking, I was glad that he did not condemn Bobby either. As Whitney's older brother, his role was to protect her baby sister and I'm sure that this has been surreal to him. When he was signing, it was surreal because I could hear "Nippy" all up and through his vocals and when he broke down, it got too real to me.
I know that I did not know Whitney Houston at all. I did know her music. I do identify Whitney Houston's music with my father, whom I lost almost 11 years ago (He died on March 14, 2001.) When I hear old school Whitney, it brings me back to a place when I was young, carefree and my Dad was living (I will save this post for tomorrow....)
I pray for their family every night because losing a parent is something that you ALWAYS grieve. There is no replacement. No loss compares to this, especially when it is out of nowhere without warning. It's been 11 years for me losing my dad and I'm still grieving.
UNTIL NEXT TIME.....
March 9, 2012
REVIEW - Jill Scott: The Light of The Sun
Good Morning,
Last night, I fixed me a cup of peppermint tea with honey and sugar. I had some shortbread cookies on deck with my fleece blanket. I slept soooo goood! Ooooohh wee honey child! I woke up feeling refreshed and better!! Maybe that was a lack of sleep thing? SMDH But, the pain in my rib cage is still there. Nothing is ever perfect though, right?
Today, as promised, I decided to do a music review on Jill Scott's "The Light of the Sun"
Jill Scott is the epitome of neo-soul and real sangin'! She is a Philly native (like my dad and his family) and she sings from her soul. This album makes me be glad to be natural (chemical free) and glad to be a woman.
Track 1 is BLESSED. And I love this song. It's like a peppermint after a meal: Simply refreshing. Jill croons and freestyles in a stoccato-type voice about why she is so very blessed on any given ("Woke up in the morning, feelin' fresh to def, I'm so blessed, yea-yes!")
Track 2 is SO IN LOVE featuring Anthony Hamilton. Two of my all time fave neo-soul artists on one song is too much for the ordinary person to handle, but this song is like hot caramel on ice cream in the summertime. Epitome of Grown and Sexy.
Track 3 is SHAME featuring Eve. Yes, I typed that write Eve. Love it.
Track 4 is All Cried Out featuring Doug E. Fresh. Jill Scott croons and freestyles over Doug E. Fresh's beatboxing and a piano. Yes, odd, but SWEET!
Track 5 is Le BOOM Vent Suite. LOVE IT! This is why Jill is MY JILL- Jilly from Philly. She spends the first half of the song singing an uptempo cut, then slows it down and makes it a different song, a ballad. LOVE THIS, LOVE THIS, FREAKING LOVE THIS!
Track 6 is SO GONE featuring Paul Wall. The reason I bought the album because I could not get this song out of my head but we won't get into that. lol Check out the song and tell me this has not been you.
Track 7 is HEAR MY CALL. Very emotional; shows great depth to her voice and range. Her voice is so pure on this song.
Track 8 is SOME OTHER TIME. Everybody has been here before. Self-explanatory.
Track 9 is MAKING YOU WAIT. This is a good girl anthem (yes, good girls still exist and we didn't have an anthem!) Jill croons about making you wait until she knows that you're worthy.... at least until the 5th date lol.
Track 10 is UNTIL THEN (I IMAGINE). Good track. Good song. Good job my Jilly from Philly.
Track 11 is MISSING YOU. Geez this song is COLD BLOODED in a good way.
Track 12 is WHEN I WAKE UP. Love this song too..... It's just refreshing.
Track 13 is WOMANIFESTO. Another reason to love my Jilly: Her spoken word skills. This poem is HOT.. Check it out.
Track 14 is ROLLING HILLS. LOVE THIS SONG! It's message, the lyrics, the content..... Women, we got to realize we are all treasures.
This album was awesome. I give it an A++ and if you don't have it, RUN and find it. I went to 7 (yes, SEVEN) stores before I actually found this gem! And when I got it, it was the ONLY copy left.
GOOD JOB JILLY!
Have you checked this album out? Do you agree? Do you like it? What is in your musical rotation as of lately?
UNTIL NEXT TIME....
Last night, I fixed me a cup of peppermint tea with honey and sugar. I had some shortbread cookies on deck with my fleece blanket. I slept soooo goood! Ooooohh wee honey child! I woke up feeling refreshed and better!! Maybe that was a lack of sleep thing? SMDH But, the pain in my rib cage is still there. Nothing is ever perfect though, right?
Today, as promised, I decided to do a music review on Jill Scott's "The Light of the Sun"
Jill Scott is the epitome of neo-soul and real sangin'! She is a Philly native (like my dad and his family) and she sings from her soul. This album makes me be glad to be natural (chemical free) and glad to be a woman.
Track 1 is BLESSED. And I love this song. It's like a peppermint after a meal: Simply refreshing. Jill croons and freestyles in a stoccato-type voice about why she is so very blessed on any given ("Woke up in the morning, feelin' fresh to def, I'm so blessed, yea-yes!")
Track 2 is SO IN LOVE featuring Anthony Hamilton. Two of my all time fave neo-soul artists on one song is too much for the ordinary person to handle, but this song is like hot caramel on ice cream in the summertime. Epitome of Grown and Sexy.
Track 3 is SHAME featuring Eve. Yes, I typed that write Eve. Love it.
Track 4 is All Cried Out featuring Doug E. Fresh. Jill Scott croons and freestyles over Doug E. Fresh's beatboxing and a piano. Yes, odd, but SWEET!
Track 5 is Le BOOM Vent Suite. LOVE IT! This is why Jill is MY JILL- Jilly from Philly. She spends the first half of the song singing an uptempo cut, then slows it down and makes it a different song, a ballad. LOVE THIS, LOVE THIS, FREAKING LOVE THIS!
Track 6 is SO GONE featuring Paul Wall. The reason I bought the album because I could not get this song out of my head but we won't get into that. lol Check out the song and tell me this has not been you.
Track 7 is HEAR MY CALL. Very emotional; shows great depth to her voice and range. Her voice is so pure on this song.
Track 8 is SOME OTHER TIME. Everybody has been here before. Self-explanatory.
Track 9 is MAKING YOU WAIT. This is a good girl anthem (yes, good girls still exist and we didn't have an anthem!) Jill croons about making you wait until she knows that you're worthy.... at least until the 5th date lol.
Track 10 is UNTIL THEN (I IMAGINE). Good track. Good song. Good job my Jilly from Philly.
Track 11 is MISSING YOU. Geez this song is COLD BLOODED in a good way.
Track 12 is WHEN I WAKE UP. Love this song too..... It's just refreshing.
Track 13 is WOMANIFESTO. Another reason to love my Jilly: Her spoken word skills. This poem is HOT.. Check it out.
Track 14 is ROLLING HILLS. LOVE THIS SONG! It's message, the lyrics, the content..... Women, we got to realize we are all treasures.
This album was awesome. I give it an A++ and if you don't have it, RUN and find it. I went to 7 (yes, SEVEN) stores before I actually found this gem! And when I got it, it was the ONLY copy left.
GOOD JOB JILLY!
Have you checked this album out? Do you agree? Do you like it? What is in your musical rotation as of lately?
UNTIL NEXT TIME....
March 8, 2012
Sick Dot Com - RANDOM
Hi All,
Im feeling SOOO under the weather. And I haven't been feeling too hot ever since I got back from Detroit. My body is achy, I'm foggy and groggy, but my hair and clothes always looks good. Even if you feel bad, you still have to make an effort to pep it up on the exteiror.
Hmmmm whats new you say?
Well, Nashville had its' first tornado since I have been a resident :-( and my car decided to not start when the storm got close. We got to leave work early and my G-Ride would not whip it good. SMDH. Talk about utter annoyance.
The next day, I shelled out nearly $400 to get a new starter and get my batter replaced. Le Fricking Sigh!
Also, it is a few CDs that I am hooked to: Jill Scott (The Light of the Sun) [REVIEW TO COME LATER!!] Jeezy (Thug Motivation 103) and Chris Brown (FAME). That Jill is FIE!!!!!!
Also, there are a few CDs that I want to get: Adele (21), J. Cole (???) , Travis Porter (????, but don't judge me) and Whitney Houston (I Look To You)..
There are a few DVDs I need as well: Hangover 2 (DUH dot COM) and Jumping the Broom
I think that is all todaym, besides me feeling nauseous, foggy, groggy and faint as heck... Again, Le Fricking Sigh!
What CDs are you feeling right now? DVDs? Any upcoming that are must haves? Have you been feeling awesome lately or has this weird weather been messing with your allergies/well being?
UNTIL NEXT TIME.....
Im feeling SOOO under the weather. And I haven't been feeling too hot ever since I got back from Detroit. My body is achy, I'm foggy and groggy, but my hair and clothes always looks good. Even if you feel bad, you still have to make an effort to pep it up on the exteiror.
Hmmmm whats new you say?
Well, Nashville had its' first tornado since I have been a resident :-( and my car decided to not start when the storm got close. We got to leave work early and my G-Ride would not whip it good. SMDH. Talk about utter annoyance.
The next day, I shelled out nearly $400 to get a new starter and get my batter replaced. Le Fricking Sigh!
Also, it is a few CDs that I am hooked to: Jill Scott (The Light of the Sun) [REVIEW TO COME LATER!!] Jeezy (Thug Motivation 103) and Chris Brown (FAME). That Jill is FIE!!!!!!
Also, there are a few CDs that I want to get: Adele (21), J. Cole (???) , Travis Porter (????, but don't judge me) and Whitney Houston (I Look To You)..
There are a few DVDs I need as well: Hangover 2 (DUH dot COM) and Jumping the Broom
I think that is all todaym, besides me feeling nauseous, foggy, groggy and faint as heck... Again, Le Fricking Sigh!
What CDs are you feeling right now? DVDs? Any upcoming that are must haves? Have you been feeling awesome lately or has this weird weather been messing with your allergies/well being?
UNTIL NEXT TIME.....
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